Can't we just start it all again l contrary l
I had this question in my mind
is there any common ground that we can find
and I looked for it signs
and I didn't get any
their are a millions of thoughts in my mind but I haven't really given them a thought ...any
but while yesterday I was training
I tried to figure out all the situations that has happened between us
I tried to map them and make a network of what was wrong happening between us
then I got a text from a friend "you have tried enough ,now it's time to clean up. Just make a list of things you have done for her and she did for you.
You have disgraced yourself ,can you held your chin up ?"
that makes me thinking
it took me some time to sink in
and understand what he is trying to say
that I took too much of time caring for her and I am too much out of my way
and she ain't no slim and I ain't no Dre
and if I would have put even 10% of the efforts for someone else, she would have been madly in love with me
I would have been her sunshine and she would have been my ray
But she is unlike any other girl ... Whatever you say...
"come on man !! let me give you a perspective, if you may"
I get that dawg when I think about it
now it makes me pissed off
and i Imagine her thinking that I am a head now
at this point I felt so dizzy
all the winds are against me
girl do you want to just kill me ?no ?
You've already done that indirectly so..
yeah he is right !
I understand what you said there bro
I let myself down while caring for her
or maybe I Am A Freak instead
I treated her like a cheesecake , even when she was a burnt bread
and she knew she didn't deserve it
I treated her like an angel and I thought that it was perfect
but she seem to be nice
but now I am allergic
of this girl not being clear
In her mind
but I had it
my minds almost static
now I am too illmatic
it's time to be an addict
of the game again
because I have disgraced myself
I am in shame again
Now i have to prove myself worthy again
don't think I am angry on you Pac it's just me being lame again
On you i could never be angry enough, its me on whom I'll put the blame again
because I wasn't good enough! right?
I thought you may remember my birthday
That you might
say that you miss me
I am sick of this trickery
but now I am done I am ahead of me
there are a lot of words I said
sorry I didn't mean it
but I wanted you to see what has happened to me
now you have seen it
you know that I adore you
but now it's time to go above you
I am fed up of seeing you happy, ignorant and with no pain
while inside I am all angry and insane
yeah I will say that now
WE CAN'T and I DON'T WANT US to start it all again...
Copyright © Ishwar Zore | Year Posted 2019