Cant Escape My Past

once I was scared and alone chills were running through my bones from the thoughts I'd never find a way to leave my past behind there was no way to excuse all the horror and abuse I was put through as a child now my mind is running wild will there ever finally be a place and time that I can see a future sunny and bright shining a more hopeful light on a soul that wants to fly but no matter how I try I can not forget the way you never truly could display any kind of love emotion turning me into a frozen shell that's distant icy and cold praying I can just unfold what was done and make me feel joy and pleasure that is real