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Can I Do It

There was this boy that I once knew 
So handsome, so sweet.
And with just one touch from him I swear I'd get so weak.
He would tell me I was beautiful, and he always made me smile, couldn't ask for nothing  more cause I ain't felt that in a while.
He was everything I wanted, thought he was every woman's dream.
I couldn't stand to be away from him, and he'd never treat me mean.
This boy was my protector, my knight and shining armor, and when it came time to have my heart I had givin him the honors.
We were friends before our relationship so I would tell him everything.
I love this boy a bunch, and dreamed of taking his last name.
We been together for three years and sum, yeah I'm talking real serious, but lately his behavior has got me kinda curious.
He went from the boy who kept me happy and always kept me smiling, 
To a boy that doesn't care about me cause he hurts me  and he's lying.
He brought a girl in our home and in the same bed we share, and f'd that freaking Girl and he didn't even care.
It hurt my heart real bad and he continues to deny it, I'm young but I ain't stupid and I know it when he's lying.
He loves her more than me and I gave him everything.
I was the best girl he had so why'd he cause me all this pain.
We get in this dumb accident and I get his butt to kiss, all this time that I spent loving him and now I see  where his heart is.
I thought I had his heart but now he's torn between the two.
He said he has to find his self, I know that that ain't true.
My mind is sayin walk away but my heart it just won't do it.
I know everything he's doing and yet I sit here looking stupid.
Dwelling on the past, thinking about what use to be, thinking how stuff was before when he was so damn true to me.
Back when I was his everything and he showed it everyday, when he would cuddle up and kiss on me in every freaking  way.
I'm Hurting deep inside, I try fighting back the tears,  he don't love me no damn more, have I wasted three long years?
I be sitting in this room kicking things, yelling ,cussing.
Stressing about the pain and knowing that aint doing nothing.
Cause stuff is still gone be the same 
At the end of it all, cause i fell hard and really hard and I know it's all my fault.
He be out there Havin fun, I sit here miserable as hell, and I know then he's wit her and that ish makes me mad for real.
But like Vivian green said " I gotta go,  I gotta leave".
I can't stay where I ain't wanted cause he don't wanna be wit me.
But before I turn this page Imma leave ya butt with this : all the love that we had shared I know I'll truly miss.
But I deserve so much better, more than u had given me, gotta let go of this now, I'll find someone who will love me. 
And all the stuff I did for  you will hurt you in the end , as I move on to a new beginning.
I gave away the heart of me ,it was a lesson learned, as I move on to happiness you will be sad and alone.
No one could compare to me , I'm high class, at least I got that trophy for the best you ever had.

Copyright © Sharaun Bullock | Year Posted 2012

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