Bumpersticker Epiphany

I'm behind a dull white Chevy sedan developing a lived-in look while waiting for a greener light With more than sufficient time to read two rather ragged bumper stickers in radical red, relentless white, and smoky blue. The left side message right in front of my resting wheel reminds me of my waiting shame that Jesus had to die because of my personal sins for which no one else could even be partially pulled out to blame Only confirming my bad-self flame burning along with a ZeroSum Win now to delay Losing later our all-in financial and partisan lame game Selling out to our competitive patriarchal hierarchical shame of predative corporate Christian Capitalism, which is what remains of Cooperative Economics after squeezing all natural indigenous spirit wisdom out of wealth is health optimizing life. If only I were less selfish and lazy about mediating good-faith healthcare co-investment cooperatives as I move along through each nonviolently communicating day and night reflective song Bringing me back to the bumper sticker on my right wing reminding rewinding glee, There is room left at the Cross for me Which immediately feels threatening, ominously judged and found collectively guilty for my personal lack of faithful healthy Soul, big shortages in potential win/win co-investments like gratitude for PolyCultural GreenHealth Communions wherever I might stumble into them again acting like We care about health wealth resilient US. So, I'm tragically predestined to climb onto the same rugged cross, [and why is our cross always so iconically "rugged" rough and primitive ragged and wretched manly and rapacious? Why never graceful, flexible, poignant transformative potentially metamorphic compassionate?] Losing today to maybe survive until tomorrow morning's StraightWhite God declares redawning punishing timeless omnipotence to judge all my individual worst and best tomorrows. Yes, there is a room for me at the patriarchal foot and the capital head of threatening punishing mortality inflamed by oppression of LeftHemisphere dominant StraightWhite PatriCapital anthro-divine individualistic monotheistic supremacy Worshiping healthy SunEnlightened humanity by denying a wounding disempowering Cross we have win/lose ZeroSum created and recreate each day between each nightmare against sacred Earth's polycultural communioning reunioning Reweaving communication's win/win NonZero Soul optimizing sacred Integrity's ecological economic empowering EarthWealth Of a love so radically recklessly lived-in liberal Jesus could get more democratically down off our CapitalistCorporate cross And then I'm suddenly no longer behind a dull white Chevy sedan developing a lived-out look while waiting for my greener light.