Broken

I'm a true writer maybe I don't write well enough for an English teacher, but damn I am good. These feelings I HAVE had are confusing as hell. Sorry about my poor choice of words. The past 2 days have been the worst. I don't understand love like at all. I am dying to feel and to know how it feels. It's my purpose in the world. I understand that it's not easily put into words. I believe i have tried to fight away some emotional feelings. I have tried to go back with them, it never works out they don't want me back. that sucks. Nobody wants me back anymore. I know exactly how it feels to be treated like **** and been treated like i was just a waste of space a ghost.Been passed around because my own mother, doesn't know how to raise a child. So nothing has been an easy path to be driven down. What is love? I felt it with one person and he doesn't want me anymore. He feels like he found someone else. It hurts I have tried to keep it going. It hurts from the inner core. I feel gone and not knowing how to react anymore. I feel so much when i am with him, because he is the only one to treat me with respect and like a lady. I have felt that way once. I am a whole thing of messed up and i have no way of returning. People tell me i will find someone better. I won't i'm not looking for anyone anymore. If he wants to be happy then i can't stop him. I feel like I'm choking on my own words can't breathe after you,don't understand what you did wrong. Someone please give me any advice or anything. I need it.