Broken

I sit here and think 
I'm going to hell.
I wish it was full of fire 
And blazing with despair. 
Instead its full of people,
Who are suppose to be close to my heart.
Family.
Its the worst.
Buying my ticket for home
Is a ticket to visit the devil.
Rosy cheeks, 
Giggles and laughs,
Isn't that how Christmas looks?
Not to me.
My tears are basically leaping from my face,
My mind mentally preparing.
My head throbs
And my eyes stare wide,
Looking into no where
As my body begins to shut down.
If my mind doesn't blow up,
I'm sure my whole self will.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2014

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Thajudeen Avatar
November 22, 2014 at 11:06 PM
A nice penning dear poet Jesicca.Welcome and regards. -Safa
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November 21, 2014 at 7:37 PM
I missed so much, Jessica, and this is an awesome poem... I'm a little late:(. However, this is a nice warm WELCOME to poetry soup. Looking forward in following and reading your poetry. Hope to hear from you soon. You will enjoy the community, we are one big happy family. (Drama & Love. LOL) ~ Take Care!! From: your new poet friend @-> LINDA <-@
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November 8, 2014 at 12:45 PM
- Warm welcome to PoetrySoup, Jessica - I choose your first very well written free verse - Great ! - Nice to meet you! - Hope you will be satisfied with our "soup family" - we are many .. but has plenty of room for you too- Be kind and keep PoetrySoup as a haven -(Comment on the poetry of others and they will comment on yours.) Thank you for posted your words and thoughts here, I want to come back to read more another day. - oxox // Anne-Lise :)
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November 6, 2014 at 11:24 PM
Jessica, Your poem captures, with moving emotion and power, the hell that constitutes depression. Hang in there—things have to get better. I speak from experience.
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November 6, 2014 at 11:10 PM
Lots of emoton... I could feel it as I read. Awesome work dear -TJ
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