Broken

I was nearly broken by him He was supposed to love me He was supposed to be my strength He was the man I gave everything to He was the the man I relied on He was supposed to be my person He was the man I gave my trust to He was supposed to be mine He doesn’t want to be mine and in his twisted mind he doesn’t want me to be with anyone else either How could you do this to me?? After everything we’ve been through together?? I was so blind because all the signs were there, I turned a blind eye to them because i wished you would be different with me, that what we have between us is different and that we are strong enough to get through everything together. But I guess I should wake up from that day dream, I should wake up to the reality that not everything i wish for is going to come true, God!!! sometimes letting go hurts so bad but i have to do it. I am supposed to hate him, I am supposed to hate the very thought of him but I don’t.