Break Down

All need a single "are you fine?" To break into million pieces To cry my heart out To scream To delete everything To ran away To surrender to the monster in me To turn into monster To mute myself again To hate myself again To doubt my existence To EXPLODE! All my life I tried to be a good person But I am a villain.. not in some random persons life..but in my family I really wished for a second that some car hit me and I die instantly... Because I am that much of a coward that I cant even kill myself I feel powerless... It's getting hard to breathe Hard to see clearly because my eyes are filled tears... I see my reflection in the phone..l look pathetic... I feel pathetic...maybe I am pathetic "Maybe" this word with my brain... I really do not want to go back...the way I was before... That person was died inside.... But currently this person is also dying... Piece by piece I am break now... It's my breakdown