Break Down

All need a single "are you fine?"
To break into million pieces
To cry my heart out
To scream
To delete everything
To ran away
To surrender to the monster in me
To turn into monster
To mute myself again
To hate myself again
To doubt my existence
To EXPLODE!
All my life I tried to be a good person
But I am a villain.. not in some random persons life..but in my family
I really wished for a second that some car hit me and I die instantly...
Because I am that much of a coward that I cant even kill myself

I feel powerless...
It's getting hard to breathe
Hard to see clearly because my eyes are filled tears...
I see my reflection in the phone..l look pathetic...
I feel pathetic...maybe I am pathetic

"Maybe" this word  with my brain...
I really do not want to go back...the way I was before... 
That person was died inside.... But currently this person is also  dying... 
Piece by piece I am break now...
It's my breakdown
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Agustin Avatar
September 29, 2024 at 11:53 PM
Thanks for sharing this... exposing your thoughts through your unique poetic style. Meanwhile, I greet you with the love of the Lord, expressed by John 3:16 of the Bible, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." Be blessed.
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