Brain Surgery With a Pen

So I tried to laugh it off, told myself that it was fine The blood stains on the ground help me feel alive I look to you to end the nightmare with a happy dream Before you made it, I fell to pieces, and I lost everything. I don't know what hurts the most- Knife in side or stone in throat, All I know is that this room won't quit spinning. I wake in blood I wake in sweat Is this my life? Who's in my head? I woke up bleeding Tears from my eyes I said I'm sorry For using my life. Wake me up blackness darkness. Let me fester inside my mind. Let this cancer grow to completion. Put a choke-hold on the heart. I can't lie that the knife went deep, My pen cut deeper...