Bottled Sanity

Sunrise...what now?...dive back into my pillow? find sleep again?...depends on the dreams try to move?...my body in motion...head spinning where do I go?...this way?..that way? can I find my way back? good or evil today?...are they the same? do I care?...do I want to?...does it matter? time is still...creeping...barely moving am I awake?...is this today?...yesterday? somewhere in between? do I love today?...hate?...are they the same? Invisible panic...fear...guilt...insecure 9 AM...Reminder alarm buzzing quickly sip and swallow...my definate answer or may be the question?...are they the same thing? different shapes...sizes...blue...yellow...brown...white damn childproof caps...brown bottles confusing but hopeful...swallow and wait no longer fuzzy...spinning has ceased ahhh...finally..rage subsides...peace abides once more I absorb my bottled sanity!