Boredom Kingdom

I'm always staring into space Trying to keep pace with your rapid race Hoping to find a significant, tranquil trace... However, I often wish you'd be a productive brother I know my father misses my beloved mother I wish I can stop wasting time and procrastinating like no other Things will hopefully work out for the better I wish you'd act normal for once and be a go-getter I wish you wouldn't be high in the clouds when I'm around I wander off with an exciting frown without a single sound Let me tell you something... A story that I've kept inside for so long... Long story short - I'll do my thing Wishing deep down that I'd truly belong I wrote this from this heart of angst and love I'm worried that I'll fall apart and forget what I've thought of I wish I would smile a little more I wish I can be rid of the sadness to the core I wish I can win this war... I don't want this destructive way anymore... I can undo this loneliness somewhat I take a breath and let my eyes shut I should be happy for your change I shouldn't feel crappy for being strange You and I will belong somehow someday If only...hm...I could push away the clouds of dismay Raindrops from bitter clouds fall down I wear the eye of the storm crown I need you to know that you can be whatever you want I hope you would consider everything I say in this rant Words like these don't shine bright like they used to I will heal your scars of blemished farewells, so do what you do Believe me this time, I'd be so much happier on my own Trust me one more time, I'd be less snappier left alone I'm dying to see the light in your eyes of pride Bring me inspiration in my empty frame of thought Love me strong, brother of song...I'll be by your side... I'm wishing your star will glow on with the strength it got It's been kind of hard to move on from here I feel something's missing as we grin ear to ear I get lost so easily in another time zone...on my own, but not alone Sinking deep into my awful comfort zone...you're blowing up my phone I spent all my money on you...but I did it with brother love so true You draw away with much concentration like you always do You say things to me that agitate me so Priceless, yet gibberish words are total nonsense though I watch the hours pass me by in boredom kingdom You're looking so fly...go ahead and fly some I wish I was more productive nowadays I wish I was more normal and let live in many ways Medication can't heal a broken soul Medication can't heal a broken heart as a whole I stay up at night...pulling those nighters again... Pondering...wandering...wondering where you been I walk around I walk around In boredom kingdom In boredom kingdom A priceless mind I cannot find Cuz I'm so blind In boredom kingdom In boredom kingdom Once again, left behind without a trace I'm talking to myself again with selfish grace Nothing new, ya know...just a lonely guy Bored out of his mind, but lookin' fly I'm sad, but relieved That I'm no longer mad and deceived I'm glad the worst is over... well, just a tad We can spend time together that we never had If I were flawless birds in the cage, I'd whistle and dance and you'd be yourself - I just wish we can be on the same page I guess the only thing I'd do is be myself I wish you'd totally understand That together, we will stand Brotherly love is hard to manage in boredom kingdom... Because, in this kingdom, I feel numb and but a crumb Let the past and the problems with it flow away Like the speechless lips, dying to say something right And spitting out senseless words almost all day You pulled my heart strings and you showed me the light I don't mean to be emotional But, I've been bored out of my mind I guess that's all...I will stand tall... And let us both unwind with our eccentric kind I'm sick of the highs and lows, ruining our main mission I'm sick of the blues and reds of our bipolar condition Let's get out of this horrid boredom kingdom Because you and I are sick of feeling numb Stop playing your mind games all over again Enough with your lies and your catch ya laters Still wondering time after time where you been Lovers are gonna love and hate belongs to the haters