Blinded

Rewinding back to the day I paced around my kitchen floor Phone in hand What I thought was sweet melodies Was nothing but poison seeping through my ears I ate every word so sweet Not knowing it would be the death of me It took me three months and 11 days to finally take what I was really eating Month one of my unhealthy habit I knew I lost myself Opening my womanhood to someone who only knew my first name before the poison began I fell in too deep Becoming blinded by his love making I looked in the mirror and became foreign to myself After the first intake of him I was hooked like crack The many times he messed up I took him back I thought he never called me out my name Maybe he would change This was just a cover up of his shame Who to blame MYSELF for letting it get this far Month two I recall making love to you You spat out the words I love you and it burned my skin like the venom from a snake I drew I felt different since then and still do Knowing it is a possible seed you planted and slowly grew Wanting to be strong I acknowledged my addiction but couldn’t find the words “I Quit” Month three I got bold said I was done broke your stronghold That lasted but a day Being alone Afraid to say Took you back quick & fast Was the biggest mistake I had 10 days more Felt like hell if you couldn’t tell I love you became short Your patients ran dry Slipping the b word behind my back No more good mornings or bye Day 11 I exploded Telling you what your “love” did At once I feel free not biting my tongue Step 1 be me