Blind In My Heart

took a deep breath and counted to three A picture in my head, of who I wanted to be I wanted to be normal and happy in the mind It didn’t work I was still blind Not blind as in the eye sight meaning Just blind in the heart Blinded by darkness Blinded by my thoughts Blinded by myself And nothing more My heart is beating But I’m pretty much dead A walking corpse I’m lost inside my head Life has no meaning, not anymore I’m not how I was Just once before I am living But I wish I was dead I’m not even worth getting out of bed I have made my decision For the final time I’m not bothering changing who I am no more I can’t cope in life My last and final straw As hard as I tried This is me giving up My one a final goodbye