Black Lily

Life's a blur, All I see are shadows; Shallow little representations of people. I'm never alone, Never for long anyway, Yet I'm always by myself. Abandoned... I can walk in a crowd With no one near me. I call on my friend, I close my eyes. Embrace the darkness, Though it only lasts a second Then I'm back to the light. Why do I feel so alone ? This loneliness is overwhelming. The tears are there, But what for ? A boyfriend, friends, family And yet there's something missing. There's an emptiness inside, I can't escape. Help ! Help ! Please someone help! I'm tired ... Exhausted of this consistent fight, With myself. I'm all by myself, Surrounded by nothing and everything. I'm a black orchid in a field a lilies; The outcast. This is my cry for help, The last straw. I'm ready to burst, Allowing the tears to be let free. I can't take this anymore... I want to give up so bad. I'm so frustrated of always feeling the way I do. Like I'll be alone forever, Like there will never be someone who truly gets it, Who truly understands my emotions. I'm unhappy, Miserable, Lonely.