Black Clouds
I'm being followed by a black cloud
The rain pours, the storm starts
I'm trying to share the fixed pieces of a torn heart
I'm just trying to escape these black clouds
Welcome to the mind of a bipolar psycho with a damaged heart
Depression beats me every day and leaves me scarred
Self-harm got jealous because i married my pen and there's no Signs of a divorce
Me and the pen have a threesome with paper and I Rhyme all my thoughts
I'm Done with trying to fix my Broken heart pieces
I'm about to burn the bridge and I don't care who's standing underneath it
I hate the world I've became Numb to pain
I no longer know the difference between Sun and rain
I can't differentiate between Love and hate, sex and emotions
Because i'm still in love the girl who left me broken
I just contradicted myself right there
Thanks to being bipolar, trying to get a normal thought is a nightmare
I'm Numb to feelings so tears won't fall
Usually when I care i act like i Don't care at all
Paid for my mistakes, anxiety tells me it should have been a bigger fee
I'm So drunk, the bartender is telling me to drink something liquor free
I'm mumbling my words, but got the number of a girl I had my eyes on
Instead of being happy i'm sat thinking about how I'm living my life wrong
I don't want random hook ups, I want love that's real
But how can I get that when I can't remember how to feel?
I feel more alone than ever, Suicidal thoughts are crawling back
Friends dial my phone, but I'm not calling back
I thought I was moving forward but I'm falling back
I need a hug and nothing more, that's all I ask
I'm being followed by a black cloud
The rain pours, the storm starts
I'm trying to share the fixed pieces of a torn heart
I'm just trying to escape these black clouds
Copyright © Alex Duffy | Year Posted 2017
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