Beside Myself

Jumbled and distractedly jarred,
I awoke beside myself like a wraith,
a spectator to my primal confusion,
hamstrung by the goddess Chaos,
psychotic and frightfully broken.

Drifting through scrambled shrapnel,
a witness to my scrappy scrabble salads
chasing my fleeting thoughts.
I was an ineffectual phantom weeping 
wounded windswept in the rain,
 a helpless hapless harlequin of shadows
in perpetual refrain.

Months passed while doctors pondered me,
I compressed moments into kaleidoscopic disarray.
My immediacy overruled past and future; and
all spacial orientation collapsed. I watched my
decline like a desperate specter, never seeing 
how I could exit my vertigo maze.

But as abrupt as it began, it inexplicably stopped.
I was engulfed by luminous morning,
A bystander to my maelstrom no longer, 
I arose astonished in tearful release
to a world of  deeper textures
and fevered passions,
to this world where I am no longer 
beside myself.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2020

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Blown Avatar
July 26, 2020 at 12:02 AM
...ah, comfort with/in/beside yourself.... peace be unto you brother....stan sand
Wells Avatar
July 26, 2020 at 12:33 AM
Thank you, sand blown! Pax.
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