Behind This Smile

~Behind This Smile~ These vicious memories are bogging me down Like the weight of the world Is resting on my shoulders But no one can tell As I am so good at keeping It all well hidden ~Behind This Smile~ Voices screaming at me that I don’t deserve to live They even tell me ways to end it all They are so loud I can’t hear myself think Let alone carry on a conversation Yet I keep it all ~Behind This Smile~ Inside I am crying, I feel like I am dying I never let it be known I keep myself closed in ~Behind This Smile~ It is hard to look in the mirror I don’t like the person staring back at me She is so very ugly, filthy and fat Who is this tramp I see Oh ya that is me So I try to hide myself ~Behind This Smile~ I feel like I am falling apart It is getting harder and harder Each and every day So Linda I beg of you not to look into my eyes I know if you do you will see All that I am trying to hide Please don’t hug me unless you want for me To fall apart Because a storm is a brewing ~Behind This Smile~ By Jeanna York