Begining,Middle,End

Fun and laughter,feelings of a master, smiling faces,going places money to burn,things to learn, lovely flat,lovely home, safe inside a comfort zone. Good clothes,good bones,good mobile phones, feeling sweet ,life complete, life getting faster, no thaughts of disaster, a need to get higher,feeling on fire, multi coloured lights,no signs of fights, cannabis today,cocaine tommorow, who knows after that which buzz will follow. Introduction to new people, life it seems it seems so simple, working all week so my weekends are free, concoction of drugs and a 48 hour party, all drugs are on tick ill pay next week, loving being on that ultimate peak. Begin the chasing with frustration, that ultimate high money can buy, monday mornings allways daunting, chewing the fat becoming slack, struggle through with no point of view, loss of my job i begin to screw, now works missing my life starts slipping. Jeckel and hyde,loss of pride, hot and cold sweats,acumalating debts, on a roll,spiral out of control, all the things i never wanted to see, leave behind my family, blamed,ashamed,untamed, unclean,unkept,unslept. Start selling things like girlfriends rings, never caring,never sharing, waking up with beasts, girls with no teeth, sweat pouring when i should be snoring, on the street,blisters on feet, all alone and insecure, is this really what ive paid for? Sleeping around on strangers floors, glad just to be behind the safety of a door, life damaged,life unmanaged, yet still id use getting more confused, damage done,no more fun, a trail of destruction,allways ruckin. Shadow running,paranoia bugging, the need for highs,blinding my eyes, scared and alone,sold mobile phone, alcohol in bags,clothes in rags, a life of crime now serving time, hit rock bottom,no sign of stopping..........