Before the Firing Squad

“Before The Firing Squad” the firing squad came dressed in faux smiles the intervention cake was spoon fed, like honey, by mother superior to the lesser bee, with self-righteous magnanimity she wore the badge Devil’s Advocate, proudly, without any clear authority casting bloodied nasturtiums around the sacred cow’s neck then the F-cluster gaggle tossed the child without clear thought shooting the Star, like a dice across a wheel rushin’ the roulette - like amateurs, a game, they had never played before, no, not once at all - without clear thought, like a dog's breakfast bedraggled onto the wrong side’s plate recidivist still in its greens, and its covetous monkey - both criminals, charm idiots easily, then, as friendly demons, invited by betrayal, sulfuric and self-entitled, glide in like masterminds, they slip through the barking bedazzled buffoons - all goons, ghosting gas lit ill informed useless opinions drown each other out, dumbing down what's really in the ring, cheers all around drowning in another's sorrow they raise their congratulatory toasts non-commiseratory and drink to their better tomorrows; meanwhile, pinned to the wall through justice’ blindfold, the all-seeing stood helpless without words, voice gone awol, watched her world burn betrayal looks kind like a trusted promise, la familia kiss without apology the apology never arrives at all - let alone time it slips through fingers like water flows in a fathomless ocean, like tears; the dismissive, with their patronising there there’s, appear on spec twisted and meaningless from addled sisters how could they know it was never any of their business pretentious, the Cambridge bogun playing la familia boffin pontiff, so totally non mensa, tepid and spineless like Shylock, picked a mother’s heart like a pocket spiriting her largest world over to the time thieves the sacrifice swiftly shipped to Moriah with nonchalant ease the most loved driven all the way, and over the cliff notes abrupt edge went AWOL, all the way - then, the sweet song, a larger universe that was never his to sing, sacrificed, the most missing became scales driven instead looping silent conversations looping writing spells to music conjures a howling wolf bathing mind large in the light of luminous full moon tears for the sacrifice a life remaining, she glues in gold the puzzle pieces back together the front facing kintsugi turns keys crooning seeking solice in the sage salve of tea leaves, and hallucinatory four leaf clovers, the forever absent eternally invokes the glittering mea culpa like a record, chipped absent from where one should be; in the present a mind and body missing poetic missives for a future long stolen, dead glitching golden chords over a repeating head triggers engaged blindfold removed Love bled (LadyLabyrinth / 2022) “You” / Radiohead https://youtu.be/OzL7u5teZhg "et tu Brute" "sometimes the person you would take a bullet for is behind the trigger" “Some stories have to be written because no one would believe the absurdity of it all.” trigger, psychology https://www.goodtherapy.org/blog/psychpedia/trigger 1. https://digital.library.adelaide.edu.au/dspace/bitstream/2440/110550/2/02whole.pdf 2. https://www.researchgate.net/publication/262908697_The_experience_of_motherhood_for_alienated_mothers 3. https://www.linkedin.com/pulse/how-do-you-tell-story-cant-believe-amanda-sillars?fbclid=IwAR0RGahURytDK7Bk57X2G7fkhoXqe2r5iz3bJSfJmQRVisR1TRznz-mR3Hc Moriah https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Moriah AWOL adjective/military "absent without official leave but without intent to desert" "absent from where one should be; missing" Justice https://www.mistertarot.com/tarots-card-called-justice/ IX - Major Arcana https://www.biddytarot.com/tarot-card-meanings/major-arcana/hermit/ LYRICS/ “You”, Radiohead https://genius.com/Radiohead-you-lyrics LYRICS / "Karma Police", Radiohead https://genius.com/Radiohead-karma-police-lyrics