Before Sunrise

I tossed and turned endlessly trying to find comfort but only found discomfort before sunrise I battled thoughts that challenged my convictions and morals that nearly drove me crazy before sunrise I struggled to fall asleep for the third night in a row before sunrise I thought about the people who wronged me in my past,present,and future and wondered how I would seek revenge before sunrise I wondered what life would be like if I would have never lost my little brother to a car accident before sunrise I was haunted by former sins that I committed and that I tried to erase from my memory but were being used by the enemy to torment me before sunrise I paced the floor anxiously wondering how bills were going to be paid before sunrise I wondered if the physical beauty I lost in a recent car accident would ever be restored before sunrise I grew depressed because I felt alone and no one loved me before sunrise I was confronted by my insecurities and questioned my worth before sunrise I searched endlessly for peace but only found confusion before sunrise I hid in shame hoping that the temporary darkness of the night would be permanent and cover the shame,torture,and confusion I had suffered throughout the night But the sun arose and I got up with it Its bright rays illuminated my mind and allowed me to see Today is a new day Last night was My Last night of Pain