Before Bed

I put on pajamas. Before bed. The curse and everything that goes with it. Something happened. I think I dropped my meds on the floor. It was dark, and the lights were spinning, but there were no lights. I could sleep on the couch. They never used to let me. I think the couch wants to kill me. The couch laughs. I live alone. Before bed. I remind myself. Before bed. I live alone. I get emotional at this time of night. Maybe a couple pills scurried away. I have to go to bed. Some of the lights are on. I don’t know. Some of the lights… I get up and turn them off again.