Beautiful

i don't have any control anymore it seems i gave up on what i was looking for I found the one thing i what the one person i would flaunt i have the girl of my dreams but in my mind it seems like she doesn't want me or mayb she doesn't like what i become to be but i am he and u want to see the real me well its here on this pad im showing u all of the talent i once had idk if i can fully do this anymore idk if i will get that feeling of being able to soar i get the feeling of happiness once and a while but if u don't catch it then u will miss this once in a while smile im not depressed for everyone's sake i just don't care if anything blows up in my face because that how i must do for something so hard to get used to that why i may not have a soul but souless i still got my goal of doing what i can to progress as a better man if have to swallow my tongue if i can never have the feeling of enjoying something fun then thats wat i must do but i do get joy from you and you know who you are my beautiful most prestigious star i will never let my love for u go i can only show wat u should already know i would give the world to hold ur hand i would take the a bullet to make sure u stand i would give up feet, my eyes, and both of my hands just for that last moment of being ur man if u really only knew everything i would do for you i love you so much and every moment im thinking about us