Beaconing Silence

I never have the right words to say.. It feels the people i look up to, look at me then look away.. Im not formal enough, nice enough.. just blunt and straight up in a world that's f**ked up Maybe im like RZA and just dont give a F**k Might as well go silent as im treated invisible anyway Like the girl i crushed on in 11th grade.. She only loathed me and made my sky feel gray My voice doesnt mean anything to anyone as i shout out the pain in black matter A cosmic stir inside my soul storms and sends my heart beats off course The sun flares like the ends of my hair, bringing to life my own personal nightmares A gift to the world for the loneliness i feel Or maybe its just a coincidence and i need to be blue pilled... All i know is im breaking on the inside as the outside markings stain my skin Tattoos from my reminiscence of days spent Sevens they look like as i ponder it... Skyrim shout words of power..something i wish my soul could do as i hold the pain within Another perfectly vain, veiny friend. Another thing they will mock me for im sure Until the end