Battling Addiction

Hi, my name is Elizabeth And i am an addict However i must be plain forthwith My addiction is quite severe I am not addicted to drugs To partying or gambling I am addicted to this guy But this guy couldn't care less I guess it's really not his fault He's a ten in my eyes As handsome as can be He's a cut above his peers His intelligent is uncanny Skin as smooth as it is dark Dark guys were never for me Until i meet this appealing guy His smile competes with the moon The stars swoon at the sparkle in his eyes If i continue with the accolades I don't think i would ever stop The thing with my addiction Is that as perfect as he is He is not always at his best Whenever i come to mind He never gives me priority Except when it's convenient for him And in those brief moments He hooks me all over again I have always had a dream To be the best that i can be But whenever i am with him My senses fly with the wind My friends have called me out My family has pleaded with me To leave this boy for my good No one realizes this is impossible. Whenever i am with this guy I am always on a high I float on the clouds all day I sleep among the stars When he says hello, I melt How have you been? I blush How has your day been? I smile Can we go out? I swoon Words can not describe How good he makes me feel Pictures can not express The color of my feelings This little arrangement was very sad Because when i felt good, i felt so good But when i felt bad, i felt so very bad And the bad moments far outweigh the good I have fought day and night Struggling to bend or break free At last my victory was bought The price was too heavy for me I left with what was left of me My pride and dreams all broken The days were bleak, nights cold But my love it seemed never wane After a while we reconnected More matured you seemed to me Then i saw you were engaged My love reared it's head at me Mine, mine you must be mine It cried all day and night aloud It clawed and screamed MINE!! And I thought this thing was dead I made sure that I saw you fiancé She was no more beautiful than i Then I wondered to myself, HOW? How she got you when I could not I strove within myself all day and night In the war against yourself, you always lose I had to steer clear of everything about you For I feared a relapse was in the horizon On the road to my recovery from addiction I always thread slowly and carefully In my quest for freedom and contentment On the road to recovery I must remain