Baby, I'M Trying

How to explain to a boy in sentences what I really mean? I can't be afraid of who's gonna hear me I just need to let myself go I'm not used to authority or headship that I can trust and it jumps me back a step every time I fight with myself in my head that I don't know how to explain This is how I lose people and I don't know what to do Part of me is just being stubborn the other is a scared lost child My fears hurt and I'm back to the days of crying but this is the only way I'm gonna get through them Please baby I'm trying