awaiting my ascension

barren skinned and abandoned I sought  my
redemption-
for loneliness was my zenith, the utmost distance 
from symphonies of tomorrow's love

resonating fear guided me downward toward
all things that my youth used to murmur-
echoes of quiescent constellations call out to
me and I am left nude…
descending downward into a bounty of loss;
the staircase awaits my good intentions as my
racing heart knows not what has been left for 
me to conquer

like a chrysalis, my porcelain skin protects my
heart from what is and what is to come-
enchanted by life’s astounding contradictions, 
I lead none other but myself into cascades of
lachrymose forgotten moments

for I have been placed amongst those who 
suffer more than me,
it breaks me when children weep, sisters die-
so, now I walk treading remorsefully so that I
can forgive those who wronged me;
the wrongs I have extended need to be 
released into the starlit sky we call a marvel

for I am descending downward into a bounty
of loss,
barren skinned and abandoned-
                 awaiting my resplendent ascension



October 16, 2019
John Lawless
NUDE - descending a staircase Poetry Contest

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