Avoidance

I really need my Dell computer can’t live without a cell phone to my ear Anything to keep me from being by myself, alone or from anyone growing too dear. I commute to work at 8 am I swear at the other cars I seclude myself behind office walls and wait all day to hit the bars I have the latest model SUV 201 channels on my TV don’t want anybody to talk to me, I wear headphones at the gym I got CD’s that line the walls Voice mail to take my calls a shopping service to hit the malls I hug the tree and send others out on a limb. I don’t want to be alone Might have to ask myself some questions I don’t want to answer why Know if I took the time to ask myself I know, sure as hell I’d lie. I can’t spare a single moment not even to watch the setting sun, Can’t smell the budding flowers or embrace the thundershowers I instinctively stay on the run I need a new stereo system need to blare loud music or listen to books on disc I need to crowd my life with merchandise cause idle time all by myself poses too much risk I’ll exchange banter with the best of you As I swill drink after drink at the bar I laugh and joke and make suggestive remarks But they don’t get me very far Cause I don’t really know myself And I don’t really want to know you I just want to surround myself with too much of nothing to do. I really need my Dell computer Can’t live without a cell phone to my ear Anything to keep me from being by myself alone and facing what I fear.