Au Revoir

To the girl I used to know: I miss the way your eyes sparkled in the sun. The way you could make everyone smile just by being there. Or the way you laughed and everything felt right. I miss your eternal optimism. Your curious excitement. And your infectious laugh. I miss your perfect imperfectness. The way your gaze always seemed to soften at night. I miss the way you always saw the best in everything. Your love of fairy tales. Your sad laughter. Your air of positivity and joy radiating through rooms. You. I miss everything about you. I wish I could go back and pretend it never happened. That life was good. That he never left. That I could wake up and just love everything. Why did you get to keep the genuine smile and the bubbly personality? Why did I get left with your dark eyes and shattered heart? You used to be so fun. You loved school. You had friends. You were hopeful. You were happy. You had dreams of growing old. What happened to you? You used to have hope for the future. You used to wake up and love life. You used to laugh at everything and anything. You used to pretend the stars were words whispered into the night. I used to love being me. I used to be you. And you were everything I had ever hoped to be. But that all changed. And now I’m broken. And cold. And empty. Begging to go back to simpler days. And wishing I had held onto you with everything I had. So now I’m left to wonder why. Why did I let you go? Why did I ever say goodbye?