At Night

I drink and I look all around at night I sit and make no more sound at night I realize I'm alone in this bar at night I'm alone with all these people at night I realize I don't know them at night I realize I'm forsaken with them at night and so I lose my blind hopes at night and so I leave the hopeless scene at night I walk through the frost on dark streets at night I think a lot, like I usually think at night I can hardly breathe with all that feelings at night I'm sinking deeper into oblivion at night I want to forget every moment of past hours at night I wish I could say I'm totally careless at night and so I turn off every lamp I pass by at night and so I won't smile 'cause I wear a frown at night I can't see my pale face in the mirror at night I don't recognize if I'm real, without fear at night I hesitate, I fail and collapse into bits at night I vanish for the rest of the winter at night I'm a statue behind the window at night and so I surrender to the shadows at night and so I remove my heavy head at night I open the door to my empty room at night I lie on the floor, so cold and dusty at night I stare to the darkness of my inner-self at night I listen to the ticking of a deafening silence at night I'd like to sleep, but I often can't at night I'd like to say it's just a fiction, but it's all true at night and so I shiver and play with these words at night and so I'm sober, awake between the walls at night