As Your Mother

As your mother I think of you each and every day You don't have a single sister or brother Thoughts of you continue to replay In my head all night long Wishing you were here Home with me where you belong I can't stand not having you near So many things in my past I regret If I could I'd go back and undo There's so many things I wish I could forget But the best thing to ever happen to me was you My light when I was surrounded by dark My strength whenever I felt weak When I'm with you in my eyes there is a spark In my life you are my highest peak A love I've never known before Than the first time I laid eyes on you I knew there was no one I could ever love more Never known a love so true I tried so hard to give you the world Remembering the first time as if it was only yesterday Asleep on my chest you curled There I wish you would've been able to stay But so many things have happened since then And maybe one day that I will be able to explain Nothing about back when Has done anything but cause me pain But because of you I continue to fight Cuz there's nothing in my life I want more Than to make all these things right Even though I can't get back all that time with you from before I can spend every day from here on out Trying to make everything I can up to you To show you that it's you my world is all about And there's nothing in this world I wouldn't do Cuz you mean everything in the world to me My first born baby boy Growing up faster than I can bare to see The love of my life, my pride and joy Only four, months away from five A month later enrolling in school You are my every reason to strive When I'm with you I try and play it cool Though that's not always the easiest thing to do It's your very smile That reminds me I do what I do for you But I know it's been a long while I'm so much farther than I've ever been And only get closer to being closer to you After everything that happened back then I know in my heart this much is true You and I will be together again Some way some how I will keep you from any more pain To you I make this vow Cuz as your mother it's what I must do After all you've already been thru I want to prove that what I say is true Cuz Son there is no one I love more than you!!!!