As Darkness Falls Upon Me

I lie awake while Desperate for sleep Time it keeps passing Yet the hours bleak I've come to the conclusion That I must be doing something Wrong or maybe it's just my Patience long gone I don't know what others think Before settling for bed But sure wish I could abandon these festering thoughts As the pillow cradles my head Mostly because of anger Maybe because of rage Mostly because I desperately seek The key that opens this cage How am I to love a man Who has no sympathy for my grief Instead of holding my hand He shuns and grinds his teeth What the f*** am I supposed to do With this disdain for life I feel Cut the wounds even deeper to see If by all means it ends or heals