Angst

I have led a life that's complicated simply Things that are routine have been tough to come by Whenever I would start seeing a rising sun Clouds would obscure my view and rains have begun In light of having seen every relation break And my happiness always being at stake I tended to hold tight and not let go To the world it appeared as my arrogance, my ego I went into a shell, with only my wounded feelings for company Tried to protect myself from the judgmental litany Of a prying world, that only saw evil in me Evil eyes, evil spirit, an evil entity My actions were questioned, everywhere I went To break me seemed the intention, although I had bent To accommodate everyone's will But all I got for myself were returns ill So I ask the world; What do you need from me? What is it that I do, that distances thee? Am I such a difficult creature? Is that what you all see? Am I a monster, who doesn't deserve to be? In the recesses of my heart, I cry every night Hoping for someone, who I could hold tight Waiting to see a smile, a few words to allay my fears Just a little hand, to wipe my tears