Angst-Iety

anxiety in my mind, still growing inside of me showing off all the things that I try to hide in me it's crippling my mind and confusing how I feel an illness of a different kind, now i'm confusing what is real people around me saying i'm a little strange but in my own opinion i'm just a tad deranged I mean, I can admit it, at times I am quite off but this illness i obtain does not show itself in coughs it's an illness of the mind, affecting everything completely fine one second, don't know what the next will bring calming myself is mission impossible 4 sometimes I build myself up just to end up on the floor so if you see me sitting there, my hands burried in my hair, I am running in my mind and completely unaware of the fact that you are there, but this parkbench we can share but if you're looking to talk, I might shoot you a glare cause when I feel like this I just really wouldn't dare because all these thoughts in my head just can't bring themselves to care you can try all you want but you won't break this distant stare. so before you see me differently for an affliction I must face think with sympathy, empathy, put yourself there in my place.. ...cause when we really try to understand, the judgement we erase.