Angry Me

I look in your eyes, the colors are changing your not the same person I met in the beginning of the season. Why all this jealousy I am only trying to love you and now you look at me like an enemy would a foe. Excuse me for thinking this but now your getting an attitude. I see the roll of the eyes and the whispers behind my back. It doesn't hurt me you know because I could really care less it just angers me that you are still pretending. Don't smile if your really mad. Because I am seriously getting annoyed with all this deceit. It's obvious that you don't want me around, constantly giving me the cold shoulder. Don't you know i'm better off I have people all over the world I don't need you. So if this is an attempt to drop me like a egg out of a window please warn me before I crack because then it will get brutal. I am mostly a nice quiet girl but that's only when i'm relaxed. You don't want to see the demons within me, take advantage for as long as you can but you know that as long as your picking i'm steaming. I am boiling slowly like water on the stove. Touch me after a while and boy I will get cold. Don't you think it's funny, don't you think it's sad. I'm shuffling my feet lonely but true fully I am not alone. I just wondering why i'm here... It used to be so much fun. You loved me then you loved me way back when. I guess everyone backs out when they find out the real me. Anger me go ahead, trouble me, but I've dealt with this before. It's nothing new, It's the same old same old and no matter what you do this time I won't fold. So i'm angry, just look beneath my brown eyes. Behind that softness lies a hard shell that's taken many blows.