Angry and Bitter

The silence is deafening in a room of unrest
The darkness and anguish are torture to the soul
Permanence is not an option and there are no guarantees 
My heart is empty and I long to be whole

Could it be that maybe I have lost my way? 
Is there life out there that is waiting for me?
Did he love for real or was it just comfort?
Were they my friends or was I theirs?

I ask the questions and get no response
My mind ponders all and knowledge escapes me
I am captive by burden and held by blame
They call on me always wanting more

I have given all that I have to make them happy
My soul is weary and my heart is heavy
Relationships hurt me so I look away
Anger and bitter because life turned me that way



Copyright © 2009   Lena “Lolita” Townsend
Copyright © | Year Posted 2009

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Beresford Avatar
April 29, 2009 at 3:25 PM
Hey Darlin' sorry it's been so long, I've read alot of your poems they make me smile but it's not oftem i see you write of pain like this, but you have to remember, it's all good and well trying to endlessly please others if you don't feel satisfide within yourself at the same time or apreceated (sorry can't spell) then you might need to change the people your trying to help untill you find the right one's. It's a beautiful poem. Ivan
Ondrich Avatar
March 18, 2009 at 10:24 PM
Lolita, beautifully written, sad and moving. "I am captive by burden and held by blame"-so many powerful lines. So much truth and feeling in this one poem. Take care. Cynthia.
Jordan Avatar
March 14, 2009 at 10:47 AM
Lena that is so sad - being one who spent most of his life bitter, angry and full of hate I know first hand of that which you speak it is very devastating - My prayers are with you, God Bless, MJ
Taylor Avatar
March 14, 2009 at 7:59 AM
Lolita, I hope and pray that you didn't really go through this. It is very strong and well worded. Good work.
Mckenzie Avatar
March 13, 2009 at 2:35 PM
Oh Lena so sorry for your pain I feel it, such a deep emotional write I hope time for your heart healed! well done!Peace & Love Laura :)
Devonshire Avatar
March 13, 2009 at 2:31 PM
A powerful statement from one who feels lost, Lolita! I especially like, "Were they my friends or was I theirs?" It should go both ways, of course, but you give the reader something to ponder here. Well done! Love, Carolyn
Winter Avatar
March 13, 2009 at 11:31 AM
I can count my true friends on one hand. I have also experienced many disappointing friendships and relationships. Hang in there, and learn. Be strong and be true to yourself and remember good things come to good people. Such an emotional and well written poem. So sorry for your pain. Love, Shar
Smith Avatar
March 13, 2009 at 11:25 AM
First off let me say Ty for the comment on my poem. I appreciate that. I really enjoyed this poem because I feel the same way. Not completely blaming life for my bitterness but myself also. Our experiences in life and our reactions determine the way we will ultimately feel.
La France Avatar
March 13, 2009 at 9:20 AM
sorry.. that was suppose to be " leave it in the past" ha ha.. blame the fat computer cat for getting in my way... Spirit and Soul, Constance
La France Avatar
March 13, 2009 at 9:16 AM
I say, learn the lesson, and move on, let it go, send it to the universe but remember the lesson learned and grow. Your poem has lots of depth, emotion, and pain and you wrote it well, poetry is healing, once written, let it go, let it slip away, gvd38all in the past, painful yes, make a new journey, start fresh, today... Spirit and Soul, Constance
Rhinem Avatar
March 13, 2009 at 9:15 AM
....wonderfully profound and written expression of heart and soul here dear!!~"My Love and Warmth Always To 'You and Your Loves, John!!"~"Have A Very Beautiful Day Lena Townsend~Bye!!:)
Rhinem Avatar
March 13, 2009 at 9:11 AM
Hmm....Life can sometimes seem cold can it not!? But that does not mean that we have to keep our eyes fixated upon it~for there are much warmer waters flowing within this life and world also dear lady!! Good Morning Precious and Gifted Lena Townsend~And I hope that it is going beautifully for "You!!?"~ And that the subjects of this write are just fading and passing winds for You dear~ As much more pleasing breezes begin to blow in!!....cont....
Fitz Avatar
March 13, 2009 at 7:48 AM
This little poem depicts the tourture of the mind, unlasting relationships , and untrust.Time to move on is right. Well written .
Richards Avatar
March 13, 2009 at 7:00 AM
Writing, and sharing, is a healing way to let go of negative feelings....so keep sharing, ....and move on to better relationships....give it time! God Bless....Carrie
Goff Avatar
March 13, 2009 at 6:46 AM
poetry is therapy! poetry will save you!!!! your great! Jim
Atanacio Avatar
March 13, 2009 at 6:31 AM
my god this was good-- am I writing what I'm thinking? Very well penned
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