And I Wish

and I wish i could write the words that make you feel something. and I wish I could string together sentences with hidden meaning. A lovely flow of words i can’t tap into. and I wish the words I can write will drain the well of depression in my brain. and I wish it would just go away. A desperate attempt at living. and I wish my thoughts would mean something. and I wish you wouldn’t fake it. A lie i hope to stop telling. and I wish i could tell you all the ways i hope it will be okay. and I wish i knew for sure if it really would be okay. A song with no words because i can’t seem to write them. and I wish this poem would somehow speak truths that cut you to the core. and I wish you would love yourself. A sad life washed away like the rest. and I wish i could stop the tears from sprinting down my face. and I wish i would sleep on an empty head. A wish never seems to come true. Does it.