An Inmates Dark Christmas

An Inmates Dark Christmas.... It was the first Christmas right after my momma passed away. Any other Christmas I'd be making the best of the situation, but it was a very dark day! It was a day I wanted to escape from, and nothing could distract my mind. My body felt so numb, and the pain fed off of me being confined. An Inmates Dark Christmas... I laid on my bunk in a funk in that cold dark cell. I was emotionally drunk, and that Christmas day was pure hell! I pictured my momma in my minds eye, we were hanging decorations on the Christmas tree. It was at that moment I wanted to die, for I just knew I would succomb to insanity! An Inmates Dark Christmas... That day I even contemplated suicide, for the pain and loneliness was just too much. A bonified emotional homicide, for my momma I would never see or touch! That Christmas I was a man with an empty shell, and a troubled soul. A day of pure hell, and alone in that cell became my dark little hole. An Inmates Dark Christmas... I thought that day would never end, but then Christmas was gone. No family or friend, for I was still terribly alone! Christmas is still the hardest day of the year, but I manage to get by. And although I still shed a tear, at least I no longer wanna die! By Jimmy Matthew Anderson for Constance La Frances contest "Your Saddest Christmas Ever"