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An Hour of Jealousy

I felt jealousy tonight with my might -
Where have my love been?
I have my hours when I get excited and then so low...
But, I'm not a coward, but oh so bold
I'm sorry for my episodes...
I lost my mind's trillion trains 
I am a lonely lake with a single toad
I have my moments when I feel like I'm going to explode...
Overwhelmed by a million roads 
I am walking the narrow road - 
Forgiveness is in my veins 
I inflict the hurt on others alright - wish I could feel happy again 

I'm hurting myself emotionally
In the end, I want to be set free
The hardships get so hard to cope with
I just need someone near my side
Our love affairs, unfortunately, are not a myth 

I'm worried I am painting tragedy in my life
You stabbed me with rejection and inner strife
I am lost in lust fantasies 
I fantasize, nearly at ease

I am a captain in this ship
Of renewal and friendship 
I am the king of my fantastic fate
I will wait
I can't wait
Till I become who I want to be
Jealousy made me mad
Envy makes me so sad

I'm smiling - now I'm glad
I love myself in my skin 
I know, Lord, I've been bad
I feel paper thin from within

Resentment disappeared
Cheer and joy just appeared
Vanish away vulgarity and cursing
The music in mind is rehearsing

I dislike the fact that you made me like this,
Satanic sadness and discomforting distress 
I will listen to God when His time ticks my direction 
I will glisten and He heard my prayers of affection 

I hate you, 
Jealousy...that lasted not too long...I want to belong 
Haven't a clue
Who I've become, honey, stuck in the wretched wrong

Lord, have I passed Your test?
Jealousy is what I really detest 
I feel you in the depths of my heart
Until you kissed him and I fell apart 

Jealousy slithers in me substantially
I had a good night actually - I know I look pathetic
Until negativity took a hold of me 
Okay, I'm sorry for my ridiculous jealousy - godly forgiveness is epic

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