An Adverse World
(I love you as a person,
But I hate being your son
I feel intense hatred nevertheless
Because of your doings that has put me in this distress mess...
I'm making progress,
Hardly a true success
But, a useful success, according to my unforgettably fantastic family
My fun-loving family that loves me plenty and much more absolutely
You didn't love me fatherly
And abandoned me harshly)
I believe I conjured up feelings for you
Raw feelings that I cannot simply undo
You brew in me a demonic disaster dastardly
Now, hear my voice in the dead of night sincerely
I don’t know your pure name
You aren’t the one to blame
You made a sick bastard in me
That I didn’t really want to see
Couldn’t undo catastrophe
But, I can wait patiently…
For peace to rule out the strife……
To give me a well-spoken, winsome wife –
The one and only desired one that I’ve been waiting for
All my troublesome life to restore adoration to the core
Passion will surely pour…
As long as my wings soar
Sorry, that was crude of me…that word I said earlier
I am impure like spoiled olive oil
I am longing faintly to be free…to be ever so freer
I didn’t mean to feed greed and toil…
In terribly tantalizing turmoil…
Your untamed flame
Made me perishing tinfoil
It’s a horrid shame
That you were like GMO soil
Instead, I want to live in an adverse world
Not in reverse…a tragedy that is rather unfurled
My human faith was thin from within
I didn’t like how you made me wallow in worthlessness
Again, I want to tell you where I’ve been
Since you’ve been gone long ago, you left me breathless
Speechless because of what you do to me
Heedless to say, it wasn’t really meant to be
I hate your heartless, cruel actions to be frank, whirling down the sink
I miss you, yet I don’t nonetheless…sunk like weed pieces in your drink
You drank your life away to drown the agony
You should thank me for living life abundantly
Yet, I feel I won’t make the same mistakes you did…left a useless jar without his lid
I know I did so many ridiculous, shady decisions, but that was when I was a kid
Now, I am bread and jam
I am as useful as I can
You’re jealous I’m like a ram…
Stronger than you, man
You cross my restless mind, even though I told myself I don't want you to
I can't forget you entirely and I want to forget it badly
Do I ever cross your strange mind? Probably for a bit, admitting it in rue
You were an angry and abusive man, but that's not me
Unfortunately, I lived all my long-lost life
Not in an adverse world…the world of dire woefulness
I lived with ugliness and so much strife
In this adverse world, it won’t take away my happiness
(You stole away my lonely melody...
The conjured-up feelings that I deal with inside will see me through on a daily basis in a minute
I won't allow your vulgar-like vanity
To ruin my mindful heart, a harmonious drum that's undefeated, yet not beaten up as you see fit)
~inspired by and dedicated to my brother-in-law, AJP~
Copyright © J.W. Earnings | Year Posted 2018
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