Am I Hyper-Sensitive

I am so mean It's unbelievable God said "believe it" I see something in me that I didn't like - a darker side of me I can make you mad And I can make you sad All in the power of my hand And THAT I didn't like Nobody can have control of anybody And I constantly see me affecting other people Am I hypersensitive? I don't think so But just the thought of making other people sad makes me sad I don't want to make anybody feel sad or bad But what can I do? I am constantly making mistakes I am constantly correcting myself Am I destined to live a life a self reprimand? Why can't I just live and let it go to Hades? Why can't I just be? Do I really care? Why should I care? That is NOT my problem Why should it be my problem? Why should I care what others think and do? I am not the world's feel it all That is not my problem I should not care what others feel and see I should care of only myself My world consists of only me Or is it? God you'd better take this thing away from me before I really do a lot of damage What? I don't know But I just can't stand of having too much control of other people Am I nuts? Yeah how else do you explain me having control over you? I don't even have control over myself How else I would you? But that is the way God intended to Us - having control over other people What we say and do does affect others It can cause them to have a bad day And it can cause them to have a good day Don't kid yourself If only we think and take an extra step to have the words we say to people to be a selected word - a meaningful word - an empowered word If only we can select a second to do the thing we mean to do - a gentle touch, a certain smile Everything doesn't have to be so sexualized that we forget to touch others in a meaningful way That is my take for the day whether I am doing it is another story God, help! Lol Really I mean it Help me to sort out the things that need to be sorted out Help me to know what needs to be done 'cause this thing is not all mine Yours Isn't it?