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Am I Hyper-Sensitive

I am so mean 
It's unbelievable
God said "believe it"
I see something in me that I didn't like
- a darker side of me
I can make you mad 
And I can make you sad 
All in the power of my hand
And THAT I didn't like
Nobody can have control of anybody
And I constantly see me affecting other people
Am I hypersensitive?
I don't think so
But just the thought of making other people sad 
makes me sad
I don't want to make anybody feel sad 
or bad
But what can I do?
I am constantly making mistakes
I am constantly correcting myself
Am I destined to live a life a self reprimand?
Why can't I just live 
and let it go to Hades?
Why can't I just be?
Do I really care?
Why should I care?
That is NOT my problem
Why should it be my problem?
Why should I care what others think and do?
I am not the world's feel it all
That is not my problem
I should not care what others feel and see
I should care of only myself
My world
consists of only me
Or is it?
God you'd better take this thing away from me
before I really do a lot of damage
What?  I don't know
But I just can't stand of having too much control
of other people
Am I nuts?
Yeah how else do you explain me having control over you?
I don't even have control over myself
How else I would you?
But that is the way God intended to
Us - having control over other people
What we say and do does affect others
It can cause them to have a bad day
And it can cause them to have a good day
Don't kid yourself
If only we think
and take an extra step to have the words we say 
to people
to be a selected word
- a meaningful word
- an empowered word
If only we can select a second to do the thing 
we mean to do
- a gentle touch, a certain smile
Everything doesn't have to be so sexualized
that we forget to touch others
in a meaningful way
That is my take for the day
whether I am doing it is another story
God, help!  Lol
Really I mean it
Help me to sort out the things 
that need to be sorted out
Help me to know what needs to be done
'cause this thing is not all mine
Yours
Isn't it?

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