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AM  I ?

Am I Just Standing Here, or Am I Just Dead?
Am I So Full Of Fear, I Lost Myself Instead?

Am I A Nobody, that you can't defend me?
Am I Just Invisible, and you really don't pretend.

Am I Blind, Or I Just Don't Wish To See?
The Love I Cannot Find Is Right In Front Of Me!

Am I Hearing the Truth,
Or Have I Just Been Deceived?
Who Can I Trust?
Who Can I Believe?

Am I So Mad I Just Can't Understand,
Or Am I So Sad I Need A Shoulder And A friend?

Is It Just Me, 
Or Am I All Alone?


I wrote this poem 22 years ago
I was pregnant, scared and alone:-( 

Copyright © | Year Posted 2013

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Date: 3/21/2019 11:25:00 PM
Such an excellent poem. I wish I had read this a few years ago - when I felt all alone.
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Date: 7/10/2016 5:23:00 PM
So much strength in your poetry Linda, and such inspiration for the reader..
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Date: 6/24/2016 5:47:00 AM
I love this poem. The emotions are so raw and real. And it has the ability to touch those who are lonely in life. Great work
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Date: 3/8/2016 2:00:00 AM
A new life can be frightning but also a blessing. The words flowed beautifuly. ??
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Date: 2/17/2016 10:30:00 AM
Really enjoyable. Thanks. Seems like an effortless write, touching and casual. Very nice thank you.
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Date: 4/26/2015 5:37:00 PM
It's strange, that you felt that way, I did also, but I think a lot of women feel the same way. Self esteem might be one or how we're raised.Love the write, blessings and hugs Eve
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Date: 9/22/2014 2:47:00 AM
you are just Flawless,,THANKYOU,,did good coming here..muwaah good piece
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Date: 6/19/2014 4:23:00 PM
Yes, my friend.. We do have a lot in common.. This was me 34 years ago!.. Hugs Arlene
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Date: 5/2/2014 8:01:00 AM
Congrats PD!!! ..It's so nice to know the story behind this poem.. .as a woman, we all pass in a very difficult stage during our pregnancy..confusions, agony and depression.. glad that we coped up those hardest moments... I really enjoyed your superb masterpiece.. one that I'll treasure.. ^_^ big hugs^_^
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Date: 4/30/2014 9:03:00 AM
Congrats on yor sweet win of a poem frm yer prime and the uncertainty of life in youth. I know what u mean havin crossd my 20s recently too. Delightful to tune in to yer page again.
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Date: 4/30/2014 12:41:00 AM
This poem was beautifully written and expresses feelings I am sure many can relate to. Congratulations on your wonderful win PD!
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Date: 4/29/2014 2:18:00 PM
I remember this poem. I think it was one of the first poems of yours, that I read. I can still relate to this, especially the feelings of not knowing who to trust....An amazing write, Linda! It was nice to see it on the winner's list. Congratulations to you!....Thank you so much for the kind congrats on my poem. :)
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Date: 4/29/2014 9:51:00 AM
This is a heart-wrenching and soul searching poem, P D. It is sad to know that it came from a difficult time in your life. Congratulations on your win!
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Date: 4/28/2014 1:27:00 PM
Hi, With so many conflicting emotions you nevertheless could, at such a vulnerable time, express them all in this awesome poem. I hoped it had a cathartic effect to help you cope. As I too remember a time when writing poetry kept me sane. Big hug and congrats to you. All the best Theresa xx
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Date: 4/28/2014 10:19:00 AM
Congrats Linda! Time goes by so quick, but some things will remain clear in our minds. This poem leads you back to a special moment in your life (even though you felt lonely and sad). // paul
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Date: 4/28/2014 9:57:00 AM
Congrats on your win PD
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Date: 4/27/2014 11:10:00 PM
(hugs) thanks for sharing and grats on the win :)
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Date: 4/27/2014 10:33:00 PM
Wonderful write and congrats on the win in the contest I Am, Linda
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Date: 4/27/2014 10:30:00 PM
Awesome write PD! congrats on ur win! sparkling even after 22 yrs!
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Date: 4/27/2014 4:59:00 PM
Beautiful PD.. Congratulations on your win in this contest... Verlena
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Date: 4/27/2014 3:26:00 PM
WOW, can't believe this old, old, poem won in a contest.. XOX~ Thanks, LINDA
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Date: 4/24/2014 6:38:00 AM
Your emotions flow through nicely in this piece Linda, I loved it so much. Think I'll fav this one :) just stopping by to give you a read or two before work gets busy haha
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Date: 1/9/2014 9:05:00 PM
Very expressive emotional write. So sad that people can feel so alone and yet others are going through similar things also feeling very alone. Well done, especially considering 22 years ago.
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Date: 1/9/2014 9:06:00 PM
ha ha Juliet, makes you wonder how old I am... LOL.. 22 years ago is a life time for me.. thank you for the visit....
Date: 12/26/2013 12:53:00 PM
I was looking back through some of your older poems. This one is so full of true emotion. My favorite two lines are " Am I Blind, Or I Just Don't Wish To See? The Love I Cannot Find Is Right In Front Of Me! " You have such a God given talent for creating very good poetry. This is one of my favorite poems Linda...Hugs...Roger
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Date: 12/26/2013 8:10:00 AM
The poem may be 22 yrs old but in that time i see a poetess who has gained strenghth, fortitude and a passion for life and you pen your emotions with such a clarity the reader gets to u.derstand the person you have come to be. On another note, you better get those creative juices flowing cause im anxious to see something new love Carl
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