Always On My Own
written 06/12/2012
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Why do I bother?
Why do I care?
You don’t seem to care,
So why do I?
I surround myself around you,
I try to BE there for you
I want to help you, but you…
You don’t seem to want me
You don’t seem to want my help
It’s like you’re pushing me away
WHY?
WHY!
Did I offend you?
Why do you no longer speak with me,
Like you used to
Your words are sharp,
Like the tip of a sword
Your answers short-meaningless
Like you are tired of me,
Like you are bored, burdened by me
Why?
Were we not best-friends?
You never really said though…
I just assumed
So maybe that is on me
And it hurts…it stings
When you forget I’m around
When you ignore me
Never speaking
Never speaking
ALWAYS SILENT
So much silence
Silence…Silence
Too much silence,
Silence is NOT golden
I wish I could make it better
Make it all better
But you will not let me
Why?
What did I do wrong?
Why do you not trust me?
Please
Please
Answer me
ANSWER ME DAMN YOU!
Do you not realize what your silence does to me?
Do you not understand that your silence is far more piercing
Than that of a newly forged sword
Why do you treat me with such hate
What did I ever do to you?
This silence is a killer
Destructive
Menacing
You finally speak
And I reply
And then nothing
For hours I’m left with nothing
I have been abandoned
Left in the darkened shadows
Hidden by the deafening silence you created
Alone…
So alone
I trusted you
Like I trusted the others
And like them,
You left me
You turned your back on me
Never there for me
Never there
Like a fool I believed you were true
A true friend
And like always,
Disappointment, despair, and pain
Followed me
No one ever sticks around
And I always find myself
On my own
Copyright © Rebecca Larkin | Year Posted 2012
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