Always On My Own

written 06/12/2012 ------------------------------------------ Why do I bother? Why do I care? You don’t seem to care, So why do I? I surround myself around you, I try to BE there for you I want to help you, but you… You don’t seem to want me You don’t seem to want my help It’s like you’re pushing me away WHY? WHY! Did I offend you? Why do you no longer speak with me, Like you used to Your words are sharp, Like the tip of a sword Your answers short-meaningless Like you are tired of me, Like you are bored, burdened by me Why? Were we not best-friends? You never really said though… I just assumed So maybe that is on me And it hurts…it stings When you forget I’m around When you ignore me Never speaking Never speaking ALWAYS SILENT So much silence Silence…Silence Too much silence, Silence is NOT golden I wish I could make it better Make it all better But you will not let me Why? What did I do wrong? Why do you not trust me? Please Please Answer me ANSWER ME DAMN YOU! Do you not realize what your silence does to me? Do you not understand that your silence is far more piercing Than that of a newly forged sword Why do you treat me with such hate What did I ever do to you? This silence is a killer Destructive Menacing You finally speak And I reply And then nothing For hours I’m left with nothing I have been abandoned Left in the darkened shadows Hidden by the deafening silence you created Alone… So alone I trusted you Like I trusted the others And like them, You left me You turned your back on me Never there for me Never there Like a fool I believed you were true A true friend And like always, Disappointment, despair, and pain Followed me No one ever sticks around And I always find myself On my own