Alone the Fear

As I’m sitting here all alone Just another night, another time My crazy ways have seen better days With a loser’s view, well that’s nothing new Barely awake with semi conscious dreams in me Creating feelings of worthless self pity I’m plotting crimes in my mind At the hands of this paused time Just waiting and hoping for a simple sign I keep telling myself, is it time to get away To search and find myself a better day Or can things be like they were before When no one ever seemed to shut the door Time is slipping away from me in a misty haze Will I or can I ever really change? I must move forward and not live in the past This time I must make it last Loneliness and fear have grabbed hold of me Are they ever going to let me be? I’m resorting to prayer and wish’s to stop feeling so alone They seem to fall on deaf ears as I sit and rot to bone