Alone and Selfish

Alone and selfish, I seek my own gratification The memories fail to sustain me Alone and selfish, I forfeit my salvation Because sinning is the only way I can keep sane Tomorrow I’ll wake up and aspire to be nothing Because I begin to question my beliefs Tomorrow I’ll wake up and curse life Because of my own grief Every day I will live death and grit my teeth Until they shatter Every day I will fake life as if it truly Matters I don’t want to be alone or selfish, but giving a Damn is futility I know I can respond to stimulation, but it would Be a waste of ability I’m not entertained by the devil I used to Be I’m tired of the mirror reflecting hypocrisy My eyes start to burn like a hill of fire Ants I wish to reach my potential but I never Will advance Everything that is essential I seem to miss And I always fail to work my way up to happiness I say forget it, it’s better to be at the bottom Than fall Instead of falling from grace I’d rather start out With “them” appalled I say forget it, no one appreciates my efforts At all I say forget it, I’ll just be the loser by default Alone and selfish I seek my own gratification My memories fail to sustain me Alone and selfish, I forfeit my salvation Because sinning is the only way I can keep sane