Alone

Please don’t count my cry as a sin, I don’t want to die. Lately I feel so alone, idk why I have a phone. On the cemetery mound. I been folding my hands looking up at the sky. If I die young, bury me in satin, lay me down on a bed of roses. There’s a ghost with hands in my hair. Devil may haunt you, but if Heaven won’t have you then I’ll be damned. Just leave my spirit alone, save me.. If you died today, my life wouldn’t change cause I already miss you like I’m sitting at your grave. Wish the universe came and took me first. Heart broken and I’m staring at the moonlight, nothings helping. love I don’t really want it to come near me. Thought I really had love but my heart really broke. Honestly a part of me’s still holding onto hope. Your trauma made me just a memory, ain’t nobody in this world remembers me. I’m really lonely and feel drained; sometimes I feel like a mistake. But I’m feeling so lonely; it’s me now vs the old me. Idk what’s wrong with my heart. They told me that love’s the answer, I responded “that’s a lie.” Happiness is just a fantasy I been trying to chase. Now it’s the end and my brain just cannot comprehend that you’re gone. I know you’re feeling great but I see all of your true colors. How am I wrong for refusing help? If you see my name on a gravestone, don’t cry because I’m on my way home.