Alone

Why do I feel so alone

Here I sit in a crowded room...yet feel totally alone

No one seems to look at me

Or if they do their eyes quickly dart away as if they can't bear to look too long

Why?

Am I really that distasteful

Do they have their own agenda that can't possibly include one more person

I guess I am really just as bad as they are

I don't make much eye contact myself

I find it nearly impossible to reach out

Why?

Can it really hurt

I feel as though if I fell over in the middle of this crowd, my body would go totally
unnoticed

Maybe they would just step right over me and go on as if nothing ever happened

I really am unapproachable

I give off the air

Why?

I thought I was over the whole fear of being hurt, but maybe not

Maybe I'm just trying to convince myself that I'm not afraid

I need friends, I want them, but I shut them out

I'm alone, so alone

I feel like someone's watching me

He's walking this way

He smiled and said, Hello

I'm no longer alone
Copyright © | Year Posted 2009

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Brown Avatar
November 29, 2010 at 4:58 AM
Congratulations Elizabeth on your win in John Heck's "Switch" contest. Love, Carol
Mehta Avatar
November 28, 2010 at 1:56 PM
Congratulations on the win for this excellent entry to the contest, Elizabeth
Kendrick Avatar
November 28, 2010 at 11:46 AM
Congratulations on your win in this fine contest...Sara
Falotico Avatar
November 28, 2010 at 6:14 AM
Congrats!!! so well written and a well deserved win...
Neels Avatar
November 27, 2010 at 9:42 PM
A beautiful write of self doubt and I love how you turn it around in the last few lines Elizabeth! Congratulations on your win in John's contest ;-) Wilma
Harper Avatar
November 27, 2010 at 8:46 PM
You made me smile, after such worry and doubt it was painful, good work, congrats on winning:)
Sweetheart Avatar
November 27, 2010 at 8:30 PM
Congrats Elizabeth on your big win in John's contest with this rare beauty entry ..enjoy your big victory tonight with luv..
Burton Avatar
January 6, 2009 at 7:18 AM
Looks like you were able to get some frustration out. Loved how real you were with your feelings and words, a very moving poem.
Dvorkis Avatar
January 5, 2009 at 7:28 PM
You're not distasteful. If you were you wouldn't write about how horrible it feels. I was like this in high school, in crowded rooms wallowing in misery and loneliness. I fell into the trap of thinking everyone else is happier. That's a lie. They're just as miserable, and usually in far deeper denial. You show them what they secretly believe about themselves so they look away. They are worth it, everyone is, but they can't help you out of this. Sorry if I'm way off the mark...
Ginn Avatar
January 5, 2009 at 6:37 PM
There's nothing worse than being alone in a room full of people. If this is true reach out even if you are afraid, even if friendship doesn't happen the first time,,,reach. Laurie
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