All i need is an escape

Who knew you were an ammunition, A camouflage with a malice! I'm still numb from the revelation No matter how much I try I'm afraid that I might risk walking the path that killed all my dreams I'd reinforced spellbound by your lies! I'm locked in your cellar For the crime of conviction In the castle you built And called our home! There's a door on your side I know l'd never dare to knock The door wrapped in Bougainvillea Hiding behind them The thorns of your sweet excuses! I know I must avert And disappear into the fog, Hoping you'd then realise what a loss feels like! But, my limbs are paralysed by the venom of trust That sluggishly ran through my blood Tormenting me all these years ! Now, All I need is an escape Is that too much to ask for?