Agony of Love

The Agony of despair Losing grip of full thought The sorrow within my soul So deeply its beyond repair The nightmares won't go away Yet I still manage to sleep Yet I manage to put myself together After each sorrow Making the effort to speak Sadly, Words won't for-fill Abandoned so long ago Its difficult to cope Yet 30 years ago still trying to fit in Such Agony I feel heart broken The pieces are so crumbled If I felt my heart within my hand My fear is what if it dissolves within my hand like sand Sadness all over within this broken glass She gave me a name so similar to hers still feeling the grief of being tossed away Into the system I went full of resentment Still I ask myself, what did I ever do? Sometimes I feel as If my purpose was to assist those in need. People see the happiness within my exterior Yet don't see the emptiness within my interiors. Forcing myself to be happy just to prove power Hiding the weakness within just so people can see strength.