Again They Visit

Christmas is almost here And just as I feared Those ghosts came back Even this year they appeared Doubt came and sucked the happy from me Smiled and sucked some more so greedy Astonished I wasn't ready My footing shaky not so steady With an evil chuckle he zips away The nightmare begins today Sorrow slips in like thick goo Sticking to everything even my memories of you Leaving my soul heavy and blue Then on cue He sluggishly slips back out It's gonna be bad never has sorrow followed doubt I don't know what this is about Then I hear the fevered shout Anger came fast and with fury Snapping and biting this time with a partner, worry God I wish they'd hurry As anger flares and worry sets in, the wounds are deep Silence still I keep Watching as my life is destroyed and my scars seep Love dripping still not one peep Love came forth smiling down Not understanding why him, I frown It didn't take long and the answer was given Words seduce me reel me in This is so much worse I seek my end Only to fail again Love cuts deep Breaks bangs tearing nothing will it let me keep Drowning in pain I can't even speak Mind and body beaten and weak Unbelievable that love hurts then at its worse it's very peak On my knees I'm praying for the last visit to be him I can't believe I survived them My spirit dims As I sit shaking weeping weak waiting for him or the return of them Now just numb within Why can't this nightmare my life end