Again and Again

It's that time of the night again It's the time of the night where everyone else I know is asleep and I am awake I think about the day we met I think about the day you left I think about every moment we had that I loved And every moment that I hated You had me wrapped around your finger You had me on a leash like a dog Everyone said we were whipped But I disagree Is it called being whipped when you are simply doing the person you love a favor Or when you hold open the door Or when you go out of your way to make them happy? I don't think so I call that love You had me in love You trapped yourself in my heart Never to escape I try to set you free but the lock is too strong Your words echo in my mind I hear you say "I love you" Then I hear you say "I hate you" I feel the knife slowly being shoved into my chest I can feel my body collapsing Those words begin to loop I love you I hate you I love you I hate you Which is it?! Do you love me or do you hate me And just like the words in my head We are running on a loop We keep coming back again and again And then we leave again and again It's like we want to let go but we can't I have made everyone believe that I could never love you again I have made everyone believe that you are the tire tracks behind my car My parents hate you My friends hate you Everyone I know hates you But I don't I could never hate you Because you see You still have me tied on that leash You still have me wrapped around your finger But see I'm naive You could tell me you loved me and I'd believe it Because you told me you loved me for a year and I trusted what you said And now you know My brain is a bipolar cycle I love you I hate you My brain is stuck on that loop That never ending loop that makes me believe that I'm done with you That I hate you But I don't Cause see it comes right back Telling me that I don't hate you That I need you But see I don't Because you are just the guy I see in the hall way The one I pass everyday You are the guy I had a past with But we could never have what we had before And I think that it's time that we both saw that Before we get hurt again and again.